Something that you have to do, then you have to do....

i m scared of falling into a relationship again

plus i dunno many chinese in uk either

3 years.....

Well....you won't.  You will get in again.  I believe...many guys said this also before (include me), but they will find out that's not true.

we will see, i m naturally a shy guy and don't really know how to communicate with people never mind girls

i love my bear kids more at least they don't just leave me behind

She will not be your only girl and only chance in your life.  Take it easy.  

hihi good afternoon! todays seem is not my day!

ndc, everyone feels that way right after a beak-up.  In fact, the last thing you want to do now is to fall into a relationship.  Just enjoy being a single.  And maybe 2 years later, you will think differently.  Trust me.